whaddup friends? i hope you all had an awesome holiday weekend. 

i sure as hell did(: 

probably one of the best weekends of my life. err more like five days. thursday-monday were all just completely perfect. 

i’ve missed boyfriend’s family so much. it was amazing to be with everyone again and feel at home at the lake cottage. 

so much about this weekend will never be forgotten. 

on thursday i had the best and worst night of my life all within the same four hours, which turned into a perfect weekend. away from everything. away from everyone except family. a real family. one that cares about me. 

the amount of times that i was reassured of their love for me was ridiculous. the amount of times that i was told they’re sure i’ll be around forever was crazy. and the number of times someone mentioned how perfect boyfriend and i are together was absolutely mind blowing. 

it all made me the happiest girl in the world. i finally have an entire family that cares about me. and shows me they care. 

my own family hasn’t even talked to me in over a week. they just don’t care.   

but being called family by a group of people that are all soo loving and caring is honestly the best feeling ever. a lot of people have told me i’m like family to them, and it always means so much to me. but to have grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins on top of parents and siblings who just love you and make you feel at home… it’s just… it’s incredible. i am so blessed to have found my way into such a perfect family. 

but my favorite part is that boyfriend and i have a new bond after the past five days. we needed it. after a year, we reached a point in our relationship where things start to fall out of place. things start to feel weird and boring. and for us, that’s been going on for a while. because of our distance and our busy lives. but we overcame it this weekend. we really did. so well. so perfectly. we’re stronger than we’ve ever been. and happier than we ever thought we’d be.  

i think we learned more about each other in the past five days than in our last year altogether. we put everything out in the open that’s been going on inside of each of us for the past month or so, and we just talked it out. and maybe screamed a little. but we needed it. we took what we had broken, and we fixed it. everything we’ve been feeling just poured out and worked it’s way into a new solution. a solution that took our relationship to a whole new level. 

it’s beyond perfect. i’m incredibly happy. and finally, i know for sure that he is too. and i’m so excited to be happy with him forever.

next goal: find a new job. so i can move home. and stay here forever(: wish me luck.

it’s been a couple days. 

a couple really good days. 

today was iffy, but i think i’m finally making a breakthrough in this mess that is my mind. i really think i’m finally getting somewhere. it’s a good feeling. it took a lot of work tonight to fix things; a lot of tears and a lot of laughs. but ryan is probably the best psychologist ever. and getting away from everything this weekend is exactly what i need. disconnected from everyone and everything except my future family. 

going up north tomorrow, until monday. i’m far too lazy to use my queue; sorry. 

leave me nice messages to come home to? :)